18 December 2016
It didn't take long for me to be tempted again. Why did I even look? Perhaps this is why we are told not to look back when we make our commitment to change. A new life. Lot's wife became a pillar of salt when she left Sodom. And so do I. I am once again awash with anger—once again feeling the brunt of my injuries. I do not deserve this. He is clearly not the one.
Perhaps such is the nature of evil. It will always seek to tempt and lure people out of their relationship with Christ. After every mental encounter with Vic, I feel disgusted, defiled, and violated. I renounce him completely.
With all this, I am reminded to pray so that I won't be tested, as well as not to engage sub-clinical psychopaths as nothing good will ever come out of it. If I feel remorseful now, it is not that I regret anything concerning Vic; it is that I have let Jesus down.
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